Depression Is A Bitch

I am still however doing my very
best to heal, look after myself and generally just get on with life. I have
dealt with depression for close to 20 years now and without a shadow of a doubt
this past two years have been the most difficult and trying period of my life.
Because of this nasty bout of depression I have naturally shied away from
speaking to people, it seems that becoming withdrawn and generally shying away
from the world has become my default way of living. Many of you who suffer from
such mental ailments, will understand the need to hide away and avoid contact
with people and the real world. It is a difficult path we tread, one that is
laced with traps, obstacles and Demons that jump out and grab at our ankles
with little or no warning.

What I no longer shy away from
is honesty about my condition, far too many people are afraid to be honest
about anything regarding mental illness. I do believe it is time for people to
be open about what they are suffering with, because the sooner we all realise
that we are indeed not alone then we can begin fighting for our sanity as a
collective force with the support of wonderful and strong people that we are
just beginning to realise surround us.
It would seem that depression and
anxiety force those with these illnesses to feel emotions on a much more
intense level. This is speaking from personal experience but I’m pretty sure
that there are others that feel the same way. So any form of negativity is
magnified as is the damage it does to the human soul. But at the same time
smallest bit of kindness, love or affection is also magnified in such uniquely
positive way that even the smallest of gestures can really help someone.

Every day I wake up with my
metaphorical sword and shield to take on the day and hopefully fend off the
Demons that lurk in the shadows. I will not let this relapse break me, I’ll
recognise it for what it is and I will see it through until the clouds break
and reveal a little bit of light and positivity in my life. There are days when
all I feel is emptiness, there are days where I don’t have energy to feel
anything at all. Not only is depression a bitch, but so is apathy. I firmly
believe that every day we wake, we should be grateful to be alive and do at
least one thing that we enjoy to add just a little bit of happiness which in
turn will allow positivity to slowly and gently sneak back into our lives.

I leave you with the thought
that, every single one of us is on a journey. We have no idea where we have
come from or where we are headed, we cannot comprehend the difficulties those
around us have had to face to simply get out of bed and face the day. So be
kind, be patient and if we implement our lives with just a little bit more
understanding then the world be a much kinder place.
For those of you out there that
are dealing with any kind of issue, physical or mental then please know that
you’re not alone.
Look after yourselves and don’t
be afraid to reach out.
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